what my life would be?

well this seem the hardest part of question bout my life...
i really dont know what my life would be after this..
after finishing my study..

would i be able to graduate or not?
would i be able to get a good job?
will i get a good salary?
n the biggest part is,
wut actually i wanna be?
wut actually i wanna do?
wut actually i wanna proof?
currently i really have no idea bout wut will i do in this coming years..
within 1 year, what will i do?
in 5 years time?
in 20 years time??where am i?
wut do i wanna achieve in my life?
good job?good salary?big house?luxury car?beautiful wife?wealth?health??
well...i want everything but i do think its quite impossible with my current situation..
i'm always envy with everyone around me....
everyone succeed with wuteva they did..
but me?i think dat i'm suck at everytin..i have no good in anytin..
i dont know what is my specialty..wut i'm capable to do..
wut i love to do..n wut i have n must do...
arghhhh...

why it has to be this difficult?
why it has to be this hard?
n why it has to be me?
why i'm always bad luck?
am i no good?
huhuhuhuhu....

am i this hopeless??
AM I HAVE TO PUBLISH THIS POST??!!